RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 24, 2017 at 6:38 pm
(This post was last modified: September 24, 2017 at 6:40 pm by Kernel Sohcahtoa.)
(September 24, 2017 at 12:03 pm)Hammy Wrote:(September 24, 2017 at 10:46 am)Cyberman Wrote: I can't stand couples. The whole couples thing. The holding hands, I can just barely tolerate, because I can simply turn my head away and pretend it's not happening. The kissing and cuddling - basically the same, only it cuts deeper.
No, it's the secret communication. The whole language. The talk of private things, innocent things, things that you do together. The way you look when you're dreaming. What you are planning for your future. The special breakfast you shared. That stuff I can't avoid because it's like a smoker blowing their fumes in my face.
And I get it. Sam and I were the same. We had an entire secret connection going on. We made people jealous just by being together. We gave off a vibe that suggested that we could tear off each other's clothes at any moment. We glowed.
Now I'm on the outside of this exclusive secret society, looking in and almost but not quite remembering. I'm not on my own out here, I know there are hundreds of us, but I am alone. All of us on the outside are invisible to each other, because the light of the inside is too bright. Or maybe it's just me, I'm the one that nobody sees. I don't think there's a way to know for certain.
But it is cold out here.
That was so poetic, Cyber, I know your post is sad but (and?) I really enjoyed reading it.
Personally, I've completely given up on relationships and sex. Less disappointment that way.
I can appreciate this. Due to the fact that I'm very different from most people, there have been times where I have concluded that I'm invisible, isolated, and an outsider (mutant). It reminds me of Magneto in X-Men: First Class, where Magneto remarked (to Charles Xavier) that he thought he was alone. In response, Charles Xavier says that Magneto is not alone and there are others like him who are different from humanity, yet they possess their own unique talents and abilities, which makes them similar to other mutants. Hence, IMO, in terms of establishing special connections with others and finding acceptance/belonging, perhaps the biggest challenge is having the tenacity to actively find people who are open-minded enough to embrace/appreciate difference (rather than ridicule it) and who accept people for who they are, while resisting the temptation to wear masks and pretending to be something that one is not.