I know I can't change it. You can't know what I've tried to do to change it. You'd have me locked up. And yes, there is nothing anyone can do or say to change my mind on this. I was there, you all were not. Sorry, but them's facts. My hell now seems to be what I said in that original post; wherein I'm a spectre amongst normal couples, wishing I could change everything.
At the age of five, Skagra decided emphatically that God did not exist. This revelation tends to make most people in the universe who have it react in one of two ways - with relief or with despair. Only Skagra responded to it by thinking, 'Wait a second. That means there's a situation vacant.'