RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
January 6, 2018 at 5:45 pm
(This post was last modified: January 6, 2018 at 5:53 pm by brewer.)
(January 6, 2018 at 5:38 pm)Haipule Wrote:(January 6, 2018 at 4:02 pm)mh.brewer Wrote: This is either touching or disturbing, depending on the object. (object is still a sentence thing, right?)The "object" in these sentences is "you". "You" is a same-ager woman who befriended me when I fragmented. She helped put back the pieces and help me to keep it together.
This is the disturbing part; five years ago I suddenly, out of nowhere, became symptomatic with PGAD--Persistent Genital Arousal Disorder. What the FUCK is this!? What in HELL is going on? Alrighty, who is doing the voodoo? It got worse and worse until I was having orgasms in public for no fucking reason! Virtual 24/7 sexual pleasure that isn't even real! Yet, feels exactly the same! It's ok if you want to laugh! I laugh too.
Talk about confused and fragmenting! I was a complete basket case! It didn't want to confide in my wife. I didn't want to confide in anyone. But, I confided in "You" and "You" helped me research the problem and we discovered together that this problem had a name and that I wasn't the only one. However, learning that this was a rare disorder and extremely rare in males, and also, had no known cause, no known effective treatment, and no cure, was a bit disheartening. No off switch! Suicide is the cure of choice among sufferers. Works every time!
I saw doctor after doctor, whom never heard of such a thing, and confused the snot out them! They did every scan/MRI you can thing of--nothing!
Living with the constant bombardment of serotonin, dopamine and oxytocin on the pleasure center of your brain is inhuman.
Without the love and empathy of "You": I don't think I could have survived that first year.
So then touching. Can you guess what the disturbing "you" object might be???
I don't have an anger problem, I have an idiot problem.