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I only loved you because I was stupid enough. And you never did, because if you had then you wouldn’t have wanted anything from me. That’s not love. You got lucky. I was a kid and naive. You got lucky to get everything you did. You didn’t deserve it. And I’m not going to give it around anymore. I’m not stupid anymore. So maybe I should stop going around looking for broken people to fix so I could feel whole. So I could pretend it was alright, it was worth it and the right thing to do was to stick it through. When in reality the right thing was what I did and do each time anew: recognize all you ever did was hurt me and abandon you like the undeserving piece of shit you are. No one is going to take over the most important spot in my life. That’s for me and my well-being.
I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m not going to. I’ll look after myself now.
I only loved you because I was stupid enough. And you never did, because if you had then you wouldn’t have wanted anything from me. That’s not love. You got lucky. I was a kid and naive. You got lucky to get everything you did. You didn’t deserve it. And I’m not going to give it around anymore. I’m not stupid anymore. So maybe I should stop going around looking for broken people to fix so I could feel whole. So I could pretend it was alright, it was worth it and the right thing to do was to stick it through. When in reality the right thing was what I did and do each time anew: recognize all you ever did was hurt me and abandon you like the undeserving piece of shit you are. No one is going to take over the most important spot in my life. That’s for me and my well-being.
I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m not going to. I’ll look after myself now.