The simple answer to the question you posed in the title is that you will go to hell. However, that's nonsense.
People have thoughts that just seem to pop into their heads all the time. That's not god. It's called intrusive thoughts.
As for helping you, I think you need to go with what you think. Simply put, you're an atheist when you stop believing in god. So long as you hang on to the notion that he might be real, you are something else.
People have thoughts that just seem to pop into their heads all the time. That's not god. It's called intrusive thoughts.
As for helping you, I think you need to go with what you think. Simply put, you're an atheist when you stop believing in god. So long as you hang on to the notion that he might be real, you are something else.