Hi! I'm new and stuff
March 20, 2017 at 2:19 am
(This post was last modified: March 20, 2017 at 2:27 am by godlessheatheness.
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I guess I'll start with backstory.
When I was young I was never taken to church, only when we went to my grandmothers house. My dad was big into preaching all the time but never practicing what he said. I remember trying to get my dad to go to church, even dragging my brother to a church down the street from us, and trying to get him to go. of course he never did. and I never actually had any interest in church I just wanted him to get out of the house.
He refused and of course I made trouble and skipped school and did all kinds of other things to try and get him to pay attention to what was going on.
I grew up and eventually moved with my mom. He became very super christian and started preaching to me harder, I tried. I really did. I wanted nothing more than to have something in common with him. I tried to believe. I prayed and went to multiple churches and according to his family when I confided in them I wasn't trying hard enough, or praying enough. I had too many questions and I have always felt like an outcast because of it.
It never made sense to me and so I recently quit trying. I have found myself feeling better, and living a healthier lifestyle and happier since.
I've also found something to submerge myself into and learn about and do everything to learn everything that I can so that when my dad finds out (and he will eventually) and he tries to debate me (this I know for a fact) I can win this time.
I have become the thing he hated. A godless heathen.
I won't be straw manned any more, and when I am I will be educated enough to fight back with logic and reason.
When I was young I was never taken to church, only when we went to my grandmothers house. My dad was big into preaching all the time but never practicing what he said. I remember trying to get my dad to go to church, even dragging my brother to a church down the street from us, and trying to get him to go. of course he never did. and I never actually had any interest in church I just wanted him to get out of the house.
He refused and of course I made trouble and skipped school and did all kinds of other things to try and get him to pay attention to what was going on.
I grew up and eventually moved with my mom. He became very super christian and started preaching to me harder, I tried. I really did. I wanted nothing more than to have something in common with him. I tried to believe. I prayed and went to multiple churches and according to his family when I confided in them I wasn't trying hard enough, or praying enough. I had too many questions and I have always felt like an outcast because of it.
It never made sense to me and so I recently quit trying. I have found myself feeling better, and living a healthier lifestyle and happier since.
I've also found something to submerge myself into and learn about and do everything to learn everything that I can so that when my dad finds out (and he will eventually) and he tries to debate me (this I know for a fact) I can win this time.
I have become the thing he hated. A godless heathen.
I won't be straw manned any more, and when I am I will be educated enough to fight back with logic and reason.
