Ask an Ex-racist

[mlmooney89]

However, above all would you say it all ultimately comes down to almost being indoctrinated into it [racism in this case], really?

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As an actual self-identifying hippy liberal (and proud to be both), I myself think there are certainly worse things someone could call you

1) Yes I was definitely indoctrinated just like I was with religion. The racism was pushed much farther though. With religion we just said prayers at dinner time and called atheists stupid. With racism... it was part of daily life. Once in fifth grade I got a "boyfriend" and when my step dad saw his picture he said I need to break up with him because he is black. I was shocked cause I didn't think he was (I later realized he was mixed and his curly hair labeled him 'black enough' for my step dad) once I was told this I broke up with him. Then in high school this really dark black guy was paying attention to me. I tried to avoid him but if I had been honest with myself back then I really did like him. My step dad worked at the alternative school for the bad kids and it got back to him that this black kid was 'chasing' me. To put a stop to it he let it slip to the right kids that I was racist and it got back to this guy. He, and rightly so, turned on me and I became bullied. I don't blame him one bit but back then I was so confused because part of me was like 'but I liked you' while the other part was so indoctrinated that I thought I was too good for him and 'fuck yeah I'm racist'. (oh btw it wasn't exactly a secret a lot of people knew I was one)

2) I don't mind being a hippy because I love saving the environment and all that jazz. I just don't think I should be called one for speaking out against hate. I reckon if I HAD to be labeled a party liberal would be the closest but I'm not actually one. I've taken the 'tests' and I always come up dead even because I agree with points on different things on both sides.