When I considered suicide I came to the same conclusion; nitrogen tank. Oddly enough I considered the same thing for cheering myself up, in small doses.
Fools the body into thinking its inhaling oxygen causing painless asphyxiation right up until the blood vessels in your eyes burst. Not sure if you're too far gone to feel it at that point.
Anyway, I didn't do it for the same reason I wanted to do it. Depression, it doesn't just drain your motivation to live. It drains it to do anything.
You're not going to kill yourself. You're not here for that.
You want to be told theres hope, that you can come back from this. You don't want to be told that by bible bashers because you know they're full of shit so you came here looking for rational solutions to tangible problems.
Well, you tell me. Is there hope? Can you change? What would you be willing to do to make it possible?
Would you take it? The pain, the humiliation, the constant unending reminder of whats come before. Would you look the abyss dead in the eye and stare it down till it moulds you into a new person?
Would you grasp that nettle and climb up it inch by bloody inch to get out of this pit you find yourself in?
Well? Would you?
Fools the body into thinking its inhaling oxygen causing painless asphyxiation right up until the blood vessels in your eyes burst. Not sure if you're too far gone to feel it at that point.
Anyway, I didn't do it for the same reason I wanted to do it. Depression, it doesn't just drain your motivation to live. It drains it to do anything.
You're not going to kill yourself. You're not here for that.
You want to be told theres hope, that you can come back from this. You don't want to be told that by bible bashers because you know they're full of shit so you came here looking for rational solutions to tangible problems.
Well, you tell me. Is there hope? Can you change? What would you be willing to do to make it possible?
Would you take it? The pain, the humiliation, the constant unending reminder of whats come before. Would you look the abyss dead in the eye and stare it down till it moulds you into a new person?
Would you grasp that nettle and climb up it inch by bloody inch to get out of this pit you find yourself in?
Well? Would you?
"That is not dead which can eternal lie and with strange aeons even death may die."
- Abdul Alhazred.
- Abdul Alhazred.
