Is love real?

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I think things were going bad prior to your original mental health treatment or there would have been no reason to see a psychiatrist. The fact that you are receiving treatment is an attempt to change. Unless your not complying with treatment. Which is it?

My psychiatrist wants me to attend therapy. I haven't done that.

Then I'd conclude that you're lacking insight into your mental health and at least partially noncompliant. Maybe you need therapy maybe you don't. What reason does the psychiatrist give for you needing therapy? Plus your resistance to therapy and change may be an indication that you need therapy but ultimately it would be a waste of time.

Are you taking medication as prescribed as part of your treatment?