Ha I'm 21 I know what are talking about I went to a Christian school all my life and even thought I was A Christian.....the fear of telling everyone that you don't believe is hard...everyone questions you and feels they need to save you from your misguided ways...I've always known it's because they care...your story sounds like mine (i read the whole thing. By the way )
"You know, I know this steak doesn't exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize? Ignorance is bliss." -Cypher (the matrix)