Religion Sucks
June 20, 2012 at 2:48 am
(This post was last modified: June 20, 2012 at 2:50 am by goddamnit.)
I grew up in a heavily fundamentalist family that described themselves as "born again" Christians. I was told to pray and accept Jesus in my life, and that when I do, my life will be changed. Well, I was under 10 years old and psyched myself up, so after praying and asking Jesus to come into my heart, I was in a good mood until the next afternoon. I really was not convinced after that. I tried to pray many times and got exactly the same results I expect from praying to a hamburger.
It was so shocking to me that everyone in my family but me had these enlightening feelings from their relationships with God. I was told that my time would come and Jesus would manifest himself in my life when he is ready. It really seemed like bullshit, but with everyone else swearing it is real, I felt like something was wrong with me and not them. I called myself a Christian and tried to follow religious practices, but all along I was an agnostic and religion never made sense to me.
Then I got older and got high with friends. I realized from recreational drug use that physical substances (coming in contact with my physical body) could slow my thoughts, make them race, affect how positive I perceive life, affect my compassion, and trigger deeply emotional feelings that seemed "spiritual." I then believed that the brain had to be the instrument of consciousness, even if there is a God. Funny enough, I was basically a determinist who did not believe in free will, but yet I was still an agnostic who did not believe in or understand evolution. I thought that the universe was mechanistic and that God, if such a being existed, must not be omnipotent.
Well, then that magnificent British legend named Richard Dawkins had a badass documentary on YouTube. For the first time, I saw someone raise all the objections to religion that I did my whole life. I went from a doubtful agnostic Christian to a 98% confidence atheist, but there was a missing step: the brain's organized complexity needed an explanation.
I watched buttloads of online documentaries on evolution, but the one that really clicked was The Blind Watchmaker. I watched atheists pwn stupid Christians who said the same stuff Christians always told me. Questioning, biology courses, books, etc. had me a confident naturalist in no time.
My anti-theism still exists but I do not really debate with theists. To me, it is a waste of time and way to lose diplomacy in world that is has a majority of religious people. I reached my limit of running my head into a wall.
It was so shocking to me that everyone in my family but me had these enlightening feelings from their relationships with God. I was told that my time would come and Jesus would manifest himself in my life when he is ready. It really seemed like bullshit, but with everyone else swearing it is real, I felt like something was wrong with me and not them. I called myself a Christian and tried to follow religious practices, but all along I was an agnostic and religion never made sense to me.
Then I got older and got high with friends. I realized from recreational drug use that physical substances (coming in contact with my physical body) could slow my thoughts, make them race, affect how positive I perceive life, affect my compassion, and trigger deeply emotional feelings that seemed "spiritual." I then believed that the brain had to be the instrument of consciousness, even if there is a God. Funny enough, I was basically a determinist who did not believe in free will, but yet I was still an agnostic who did not believe in or understand evolution. I thought that the universe was mechanistic and that God, if such a being existed, must not be omnipotent.
Well, then that magnificent British legend named Richard Dawkins had a badass documentary on YouTube. For the first time, I saw someone raise all the objections to religion that I did my whole life. I went from a doubtful agnostic Christian to a 98% confidence atheist, but there was a missing step: the brain's organized complexity needed an explanation.
I watched buttloads of online documentaries on evolution, but the one that really clicked was The Blind Watchmaker. I watched atheists pwn stupid Christians who said the same stuff Christians always told me. Questioning, biology courses, books, etc. had me a confident naturalist in no time.
My anti-theism still exists but I do not really debate with theists. To me, it is a waste of time and way to lose diplomacy in world that is has a majority of religious people. I reached my limit of running my head into a wall.
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