My progress report in defeating my illness.

[Mystical]

Personally I've found that disbelief in god took more will than believing in it. Disbelieving in god entails taking all the responsibility for your actions, thoughts, and environment rather than leaving it up to god to make things better. My dad, he refuses medical treatment both for his worsening diabetes and for his mental health (his parents died as a result of his fathers untreated schizophrenia). It breaks my heart every day because he's such a good man and invokes a life of solitary confinement, willingly based on his preconceived notion that he is how god made himself to be and that doctors are playing god. Unfortunately he strikes down my position that if there is a god he put everything including medicinal properties and our brains ability to harness them for well being. As a result he holds me hostage worrying about his physical and mental well being constantly; its selfish what he does even though he believes he's being unselfish. I chose to avoid that route. I chose to harness the things this life has to offer, for him and for me..