Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[Losty]

Can I just say, I love smelling like suavitel all day, but it's dangerous. I can't stop sniffing myself and I look like a weirdo xD

[brewer]

Can I just say, I love smelling like suavitel all day, but it's dangerous. I can't stop sniffing myself and I look like a weirdo xD

Especially if you only washed your undies.

[Kernel Sohcahtoa]

CIJS,

Upon reflection, it is interesting that about two years ago, some of my conflict resolution classmates (people who are experienced mediators/conflict resolution professionals) thought that I had talent in the diplomatic/peacemaking field and saw me going places in it:   I was absolutely dedicated and committed to constructive conflict resolution and finding ways to master my emotions.  In addition, I had this confidence and belief in myself that I could be an organizational leader who inspires the people under him via treating them with respect (not barking at them but actually being a calm/collected leader) and making it clear that what they do matters and is appreciated by myself and the organization.  Hence, for the most part, this belief in myself is ultimately what sets me a part, and if I allowed myself to part with it and quit on it, I'm fairly certain that I would just become another jerk manager who contributes to employee turnover and inhibits organizational success .

[vorlon13]

CIJS

LOL, sort of, finally spelled your (unique) name correctly on the google search bar and found you.  I'll respect your privacy a bit and leave out what state you wound up in (and searching your misspelled name with the state you haven't been in since '82 sure made it harder to find you).  But you did wind up in a state that is very forthcoming about posting criminal records on line.

Any chance you'd remember me?  Probably not, but we did hang out some.  You knew Jim A (and I can't google him, name is way to common and I don't recall anything unique and searchable about him) and being a friend of Jim A gave me access to your world with no restrictions.  You even lost your billfold in my car once (remember that?) and I found out your real first name by looking at your DL.  I'd never have found you with what we called you then, that one isn't even on your extensive list of aliases, but your real first name sealed it once I figured out how to spell your last name correctly.

I recall your court case at the time I knew you.  "Playing doctor" is frowned upon, and the prosecutor was very eager to teach you a lesson. But he fucked up, he clearly and obviously over charged you and in your jury trial your scuzzball lawyer just had to ask a 'real' doctor the right question (and he did) and you skated on something pretty damn serious, and made the prosecutor look like a fool.

I moved away shortly thereafter.  (BTW, thanks for the parting gift, but Margaret stole it and maybe that was for the best) and it looks like after your narrow brush with a long spell in Waupon, you moved away too.  Probably for the best, you were destined to encounter a prosecutor again, and he is definitely one in your home town you don't want to cross paths with again.

And it didn't matter, since '82, you spent more time locked up than out, regardless.  And it looks like your folks moved to the same state so they could visit you.  Even when I was around, I knew they were on your side, no matter what, hell you were running quite a franchise right out of their living room and they were OK with it.  Too bad the move didn't agree with your dad, looks like he passed pretty soon afterwards, but your mom was in it for the long haul.

And you were out periodically.  Long enough to father a kid.  LOL, I had hopes (and the hots) for you but realized your business was your mistress, so never dreamed you'd hook up with anyone to do THAT !!

So, what do they have on your record?

Well, you didn't change, drug and theft convictions, no surprise there.  What was surprising was the extensive list of infractions you accrued while doing time.  Failing drug tests while incarcerated ?  Sheesh!!  Brawling, refusing orders, washing out of several prison jobs for being an idiot (my take).  You were a regular for in house hearings and punishments.  Doesn't look like you ever earned any early release for good behavior, ever.

And you had trouble when ever you were released.  Any condition the state imposed on you as a term of your release, you violated it.

Even found a couple mugshots.  You didn't age well, but I'll give you this, bulking up to 220 lbs didn't hurt.  You weren't all that big when I knew you, but putting on some muscle, well, it suits you, and better than the prison stripes.

And back to '82, I realize now that ride along I went with you on, you were meeting some EXTREMELY scary men.  The house was scary, waiting for them to show up was scary, when they showed up and were hyper paranoid it was scary, and what they had with them was scary.  That was your world, yeah, I appreciate the little sample morsel of it, but I am glad I never saw that it again.  Those guys had guns, and they weren't worried about the people they were meeting at that house, and they certainly weren't worried about the cops.  They were worried about other men showing up that were JUST LIKE THEMSELVES.

I see you made it to the mid 2000s.  48 is kinda young and kinda old, especially for your world.  Didn't bother discovering the circumstances, you most likely got shanked in the shower.  Nice place for me to leave it, I have enough answers without knowing.

I remember you liked my car.  That's why I had it, nice ice breaker (IMWTO), and people felt secure going places in it with me, and I felt secure in it going where they wanted to go sometimes, even when maybe I shouldn't have . . .

[Foxaèr]

CIJS

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LOL, sort of, finally spelled your (unique) name correctly on the google search bar and found you.  I'll respect your privacy a bit and leave out what state you wound up in (and searching your misspelled name with the state you haven't been in since '82 sure made it harder to find you).  But you did wind up in a state that is very forthcoming about posting criminal records on line.

Any chance you'd remember me?  Probably not, but we did hang out some.  You knew Jim A (and I can't google him, name is way to common and I don't recall anything unique and searchable about him) and being a friend of Jim A gave me access to your world with no restrictions.  You even lost your billfold in my car once (remember that?) and I found out your real first name by looking at your DL.  I'd never have found you with what we called you then, that one isn't even on your extensive list of aliases, but your real first name sealed it once I figured out how to spell your last name correctly.

I recall your court case at the time I knew you.  "Playing doctor" is frowned upon, and the prosecutor was very eager to teach you a lesson. But he fucked up, he clearly and obviously over charged you and in your jury trial your scuzzball lawyer just had to ask a 'real' doctor the right question (and he did) and you skated on something pretty damn serious, and made the prosecutor look like a fool.

I moved away shortly thereafter.  (BTW, thanks for the parting gift, but Margaret stole it and maybe that was for the best) and it looks like after your narrow brush with a long spell in Waupon, you moved away too.  Probably for the best, you were destined to encounter a prosecutor again, and he is definitely one in your home town you don't want to cross paths with again.

And it didn't matter, since '82, you spent more time locked up than out, regardless.  And it looks like your folks moved to the same state so they could visit you.  Even when I was around, I knew they were on your side, no matter what, hell you were running quite a franchise right out of their living room and they were OK with it.  Too bad the move didn't agree with your dad, looks like he passed pretty soon afterwards, but your mom was in it for the long haul.

And you were out periodically.  Long enough to father a kid.  LOL, I had hopes (and the hots) for you but realized your business was your mistress, so never dreamed you'd hook up with anyone to do THAT !!

So, what do they have on your record?

Well, you didn't change, drug and theft convictions, no surprise there.  What was surprising was the extensive list of infractions you accrued while doing time.  Failing drug tests while incarcerated ?  Sheesh!!  Brawling, refusing orders, washing out of several prison jobs for being an idiot (my take).  You were a regular for in house hearings and punishments.  Doesn't look like you ever earned any early release for good behavior, ever.

And you had trouble when ever you were released.  Any condition the state imposed on you as a term of your release, you violated it.

Even found a couple mugshots.  You didn't age well, but I'll give you this, bulking up to 220 lbs didn't hurt.  You weren't all that big when I knew you, but putting on some muscle, well, it suits you, and better than the prison stripes.

And back to '82, I realize now that ride along I went with you on, you were meeting some EXTREMELY scary men.  The house was scary, waiting for them to show up was scary, when they showed up and were hyper paranoid it was scary, and what they had with them was scary.  That was your world, yeah, I appreciate the little sample morsel of it, but I am glad I never saw that it again.  Those guys had guns, and they weren't worried about the people they were meeting at that house, and they certainly weren't worried about the cops.  They were worried about other men showing up that were JUST LIKE THEMSELVES.

I see you made it to the mid 2000s.  48 is kinda young and kinda old, especially for your world.  Didn't bother discovering the circumstances, you most likely got shanked in the shower.  Nice place for me to leave it, I have enough answers without knowing.

I remember you liked my car.  That's why I had it, nice ice breaker (IMWTO), and people felt secure going places in it with me, and I felt secure in it going where they wanted to go sometimes, even when maybe I shouldn't have . . .

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Your life reminds me of a Stonewall era gay film.

[vorlon13]

it was a stonewall era gay film . . .

[Cyberman]

I am really being hioneest

I think I really really hate you now
You fucking ruined my life
You selfish fucking bitch

[The Valkyrie]

I am really being hioneest

I think I really really hate you now
You fucking ruined my life
You selfish fucking bitch

[Thumpalumpacus]

CIJS ... it's sometimes a great feeling, embracing apathy.

[Joods]

CIJS - Hot flashes suck and you men better be damn lucky you don't suffer from them like I do.