The pain of a gift

[JBrentonK]

It is my goal of this thread to openly, discuss, the title of this thread. Mind you I am on my cell phone. Just a minute, let's say 60 seconds ago I realized something horrible. Then I thought of the old AF peeps. Will they care? Possibly no contradiction exists in reality I said, and with that and my rule of contradictions in mind I strolled off to make this case.

No attempts hopefully make an obviously different bent on the thread purpose. I simply started to recognize my suffering, why it is taking place exactly as such. God, it would indeed be said, contradictory to all athiests' view..., would not allow suffering in this world in the manner I have conceived. No ... Perhaps he would not! I think. So...

Yes what suffering? My friends, I have for many years now suffered due to , I believe, my valor. You are aware of male valor and how, in general, it should rule most things. Long ages I have put extreme attention, in far too many numerous ways to my val. Even at 6 or 8 years of age I had a pictute where I used it as it resembles it honestly, Jacobs ladder... Yes, the ultimite truth of God. So it was indeed for me at younger ages.

Do not forget ppl who are aware of "the truth" are not bothered by "trivialities" so please do not bring them up. So I arrived at patents house on a trip home fully val'd. Ten years plus 6 months, later, today, u have spent about 1 week recognizing the crippling fact. It is very crippling, indeed. I have so much truth that it is enough to do anything, even to me. Suffice it to say, I will not explain any details. I am "alright".

The crux of my topic is about my name, having posted my last name b4 I do so again, it is Killingsworth. Surprised? Not but a few mins ago as I said I had the recognition of why I am suffering, added to the previous statements of mine. I had a... Perception of being in jail or something. I have always been extremely moral/ethical etc.

My thought thankfully reminded me of my name. Is it... A truth of reality? Again, as in previous threads, is it something more? But my name is in this sense referred to as something of a so called "gift". No contradictions in this world... Maybe even for athiests... Wat then is the contradiction of my suffering? Do people suffer in gods name? In paganism, this is about the end of that. Do people suffer like I do? Nature has never provided someone with a nature like mine I guess I will say. Do you guess what nature that is I am suffering from? May I say now, I believe my name is this "gift". Nobody is blessed like a Killingsworth, and suffers these thoughts, he being in a jail and in reality the similarities to this occurring,... You obviously do not see my point. However, eben being atheists, you ARE obliged to be capable of self preservation. Lol. Do you see my self preservation? The name has been before linked to god, yet no one can confirm my knowledge which is, the definition of my name being the word of cyllias people. Find this by searching the name of killingsworth. Is equivalent to cyllia=god. Yet we do not need proof. We know that this may be part of it. Why do I suffer these insane thoughts ( BTW they are based in reality) and must defend myself? I will tell you now , though people do not suffer contradictions in reality, my name CAN be proven to not be the reason I am suffering.

Its my belief we suffer things god wants us to know. I wonder what I have to know?

[JBrentonK]

We sometimes are also provided with these gifts, in this world.

[Losty]

You obviously do not see my point.

QFT

[Little lunch]

I cannot see how you can function in society with thought patterns such as those.
You don't make any sense and you really should see a doctor about it.

[Cyberman]

Its my belief we suffer things god wants us to know. I wonder what I have to know?

We have to suffer you. I wonder what we're supposed to know?

[Minimalist]

What the fuck are you blabbering about?

[JBrentonK]

What the fuck are you blabbering about?

Yes I see that the people do not understand what I was talking about. My OP should be pretty deep though if you read it right. Even entirely comprehensible. I get that a lot. So... Basically as I said I got the picture in my head how horrible it was when I imagined myself physically in a jail. Someone said something about having problems due to some of these issues I described? Yes I do have some problems I have had the same problems my life long, thank god I recgnized it was my val and decided to do something about it! Anyhow no need to be negetive as I've said, I am asides this just perfectly fine. So no more cruelty please?

Btw I wish I could ever be more negetive than Minimalist (above)... omg... If I was that low on the food chain I'd probably be done for (no joke)...

So picture yourself in jail, like you know the monopolys get out of jail free card or whatever... No in a physical jail, and the reason you speculate that you would be in jail, given, the only reason that is, is because as I have said of yur name, my last name being, Killingsworth. You are aware when you make these ideas up to yourself, that being in jail, I guess first of off seems kind of odd, you would never be there, but being that you know you could actually be sitting in a jail cell due to what you say, what you do not say, etcetera. But it all comes out of you somehow. So you must know that continued repetition of the word starting with Kill, or using your last name will result in an extreme punishment. None of this has anything to do with stupidity so keep thse thoughts to yourselves thanks. So you see my point now. Any usage whatsoever of the word kill or of my last name in connection with this, will / would result with a further or deeper recognition of the jail cell. Taking it to the extreme you might say actually in life winding up with abuse from others, at the most severe form, all due to your abuse of the word kill.


God would not do this to somebody. I might even die because of these things, this is the worst. But it can be bad, although not realistically, since it is impossible to do such a bad in the sphere of morals. But we are not questioning this, I repeate, we are not questioning that! I simply wish you to know that why I am suffering and what why I am suffering or whatever. Do you read? So yes you read, I am in pain because of my gift, the gift of being a killingsworth, as I have said in previous threads, this is the name of a child of god, in some direct way or another sense of the same thing. Why do we suffer for our gifts, do you know? I can't surely expect to reply to minimalist with repeating my statements, that I am suffering because I am a Killingsworth is all I feel I need to say. This was explained , the details of what he should not use aas a response, but he would anyway because he isn't aware of anything whatsoever. Nonetheless being a killingsworth I would retort perhaps, is a gift, obviously. It comes with proofs, of being in pain, due to the name, not just due to child age valor. That there are proofs of having a gift! One does not suffer such a name, this is mypoint, one does NOT suffer the name, and then go on, recognizing that it is all because of a name. But is this the case?

It is my point in fact, minimilist, that I am suffering only because of my name. That this gift is because, I have this name. You see. If I were someone else as proof, I would not suffer the name Killingsworth. But I am suffering it. And I feel incredible relief, that a person CAN suffer this name, Killingsworth, and still recognize all of the goodness in the world.

Note that it could also be proof of a direct relationship with the divine God. This is just a warm up minimalist. Who's next?

[JBrentonK]

That I would be figuratively in a jail cell, and still have the abilitys to preform my daily tasks, begs a few questions. Do you even recognize, how extreme this is? Jail is one severe thing to have happen to a person. So very very severe. Why do you think I pose these questions, asking you if you believe it is a gift from God, if I thought, that a person could be free from the prison cell, and still have the name?

Do you see, that no body would recognize the labors that a Killingsworth goes through, even uttering the name of God.

[Edwardo Piet]

Hmmm. I'm not the biggest rambler I know anymore.

JK is Bestest Reminder To Never Do Acid

[JBrentonK]

Nobody with the name "Killingworth" would suffer the same as a person with the name Killingsworth. (note the S difference in the two words). The reason is because Killing(s) appears to apply a recognition of ones acts. So as an atheist, you could take the fool hearted belief that a Killingworth would suffer the same thing, and not be "defined" as I would have it as a part with the divine God Jehovah, but in truth, I refute this, simply because of these facts. One of these facts btw is my knowledge that a Killingsworth uses a plural of the word "to kill" which is evidenced in the name as a refrence to some divinity, this is my belief, it is I feel where the word cyllia comes into the picture, cyllia being defined as God, Killingsworth implying (by definition) "THE WORD OF GODS PEOPLE."... Nothing is more divine than that, even in refrence to the Holy Bible, as God's people appear as a communion of one with the other, and as life would have it this has appeared the case since the dawn of time just so you know...