Rape and injustice.

[Creed of Heresy]

It's...not easy. I'll admit as such. There are some times where I come home from it and I'm just gaunt. My eyes are vacant, I barely respond to anyone around me, and I oftentimes just want to forget everything I just heard. I considered stopping, once, a couple months ago, when my bipolar 2 disorder was getting really bad and my lows were becoming suicidally bad. And that's when I got hold of some weed. Makes it easier to handle when you can go home and smoke a bowl. Still feel like shit but I can tolerate it again. And given how short-staffed they are at the RCC, I realize I fill a vital role. I get to help people. I can safely say I'm doing some good with my pathetic little life. And I keep people who've been traumatized beyond measure from succumbing to the experience. Yeah. It's hard. But it's worthwhile.