Word of advice for you Jesuslover1. And I don't mean this in any way snarkily.
chill!
The nice thing about God is that your view, and my view, and your parents view, and the view of everyone here DON'T CHANGE THE REALITY.
If he's real, and you have doubts, Its cool! The bible invites you to study and to think. God made you in his image and that includes the ability to think and reason.
If he's not real, you have all the time in the world to discover that he's not. If you believe and it turns out you're wrong, it does little harm (unless you go around starting wars or burning abortion clinics etc, in which case, knock that shit off right now.)
I think that you are subconsciously falling into the trap of thinking that what you decide about God decides what is real. It really doesn't.
The only other thing I would say is that heaven (if its real) offers no corperate memberships. From what you say it sounds to me as if your faith is in large part driven and motivated by what those around you tell you. It doesn't work like that. You have to make up your own mind, for yourself. God does not accept family memberships.
But mainly, chill brethren. Its ok to have doubts. Its ok to be uncertain. Its OK to believe something without knowing it for sure. There is implied pressure in many Christian communities to be 100% guns blazing on fire for Jesus. I don't think that's right, or scriptural. I think If Jesus wants you, he wants you as you are, and would prefer you full of honest doubt rather than professing a pitch and certainty of faith you don't truly hold. Be honest with yourself.
chill!
The nice thing about God is that your view, and my view, and your parents view, and the view of everyone here DON'T CHANGE THE REALITY.
If he's real, and you have doubts, Its cool! The bible invites you to study and to think. God made you in his image and that includes the ability to think and reason.
If he's not real, you have all the time in the world to discover that he's not. If you believe and it turns out you're wrong, it does little harm (unless you go around starting wars or burning abortion clinics etc, in which case, knock that shit off right now.)
I think that you are subconsciously falling into the trap of thinking that what you decide about God decides what is real. It really doesn't.
The only other thing I would say is that heaven (if its real) offers no corperate memberships. From what you say it sounds to me as if your faith is in large part driven and motivated by what those around you tell you. It doesn't work like that. You have to make up your own mind, for yourself. God does not accept family memberships.
But mainly, chill brethren. Its ok to have doubts. Its ok to be uncertain. Its OK to believe something without knowing it for sure. There is implied pressure in many Christian communities to be 100% guns blazing on fire for Jesus. I don't think that's right, or scriptural. I think If Jesus wants you, he wants you as you are, and would prefer you full of honest doubt rather than professing a pitch and certainty of faith you don't truly hold. Be honest with yourself.
"Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
Through passion, I gain strength.
Through strength, I gain power.
Through power, I gain victory.
Through victory, my chains are broken."
Sith code
Through passion, I gain strength.
Through strength, I gain power.
Through power, I gain victory.
Through victory, my chains are broken."
Sith code
