Have you ever explored Buddhism?

[Angrboda]

I think you can separate meditation from Buddhism. A lot of different traditions embrace meditation; Buddhism isn't a necessary part of it.

I've flirted with Buddhism over the years. I've come to the conclusion that it's pretty on the outside, but the center is filled with woo. Plus, I find Buddhists are often egotistical. In my own mind, I see Siddhartha as a failed ascetic. He set out to find enlightenment but failed, and settled for a teaching career instead. I don't think he ever reached enlightnment. But you suggest anything of the sort to dyed-in-the-wool Buddhists, and you get a lot of faith based blowback. His teachings are useful, as far as that goes, but because he never finished his framework, the gaps are filled in with metaphysical speculation. As a moral guide, it's admirable; as a statement of truth about life, it falls short.