Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[The Valkyrie]

In Tugaland you can choose not to buy blinkers?

Lol

With EU regulations, the ones that the UK wants to back out of, of course blinkers are mandatory.
But it often feels like some people don't have that pack.

It's a pet peeve for me.

The number of times I've told people that indicators aren't optional extras...

[Crossless2.0]

CIJS, I've added Tyler Henry (the "Hollywood Medium") to my fantasy list of people I'd like to beat senseless.

I'd be nothing if I didn't have my psychotic grudges against complete strangers. Keeps me young and oddly happy.

[Kernel Sohcahtoa]

CIJS,

I miss the days of hanging out and watching WWE with a good  friend of mine; he relocated to another state, so we don't talk that much.  In particular, we enjoyed  watching  old WWE pay-per-views/episodes of WWE Main Event with  Jessie Ventura or Bobby "the brain" Heenan as ringside announcers; their heel-like commentary was witty, funny, ridiculous, and priceless.  In addition, I enjoyed  Gorilla Monsoon's precise usage of human anatomical terms when he was describing a particular area of a wrestler's body that was being attacked (muscles, bones, joints, etc.).  For example, he would refer to the external occipital protuberance when a wrestler would take a shot to the lower rear of his skull or to the Solar Plexus whenever a wrestler would take a shot to the mid to upper abdomen (Jim Ross also did this).  In addition, the vocabulary of Vince McMahon and Jim Ross was also pretty interesting.

[Edwardo Piet]

CIJS also, I know I'm an idiot. I know I am. I look at myself every day in the mirror and I say "S, you are a fucking idiot". I know something is seriously wrong with me that I let myself go through these things. And I think on a deeper level something else really wrong with me that I attract the kind of people who want to do these things to me.

You're not an idiot, S.

And I hope you're okay and feeling better now.

ETA: Wow I just realized I'm super duper late to respond to this, lol.... so I realize now that when I've been away from AF for a while... "New Posts" ain't so new anymore, lol.

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Not sure why I'm hearing an ice cream van, when it's blustery rain, depressing dark clouds and near gale force winds.

Honey this is not ice cream weather, you're not going to get custom on today. Go home, put the kettle on and have a brew.

bold mine

I can hear you in your best gay voice saying this with extra sass thrown in. LOL

For me... it's always ice cream weather.

In other words I'm probably going to give myself diabetes but oh fuck I love Ben and Jerry's too much!

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CIJS, to anyone here tolerating abusive/toxic relationships, you deserve better.

Quoted for truth.

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I might be many things, but at least I would never use the memory of a dead person I know is the one true love of your life as a weapon against you, you disgusting hate filled bitch. She is worth a million of you and you fucking know it. Crawl back into your festering little hole and just fucking die there.

Go Steambum! ! ! !

ETA: Yeah all my responses are super late lol. It's what I get for being away from AF. Just imagine I'm on some sort of satellite delay and it should all be fine, lol.

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^^^

CIJS you have turn signals.  I suggest you use them..

As a pedestrian.... what really pisses me off is when they give a turn signal for one way then go the other way

[Longhorn]

CIJS I don't know what to do about you.

I've gotten used to just ignoring everything and not getting emotionally involved, because caring about your problems has fucked me up more than once in the past. But back then when I decided to, I still thought you were only toxic. Now, after this talk with N, I *know* there is something way not right with you. I don't wanna say it, but you do need help. Even though you appear perfectly content drowning in your pool of self-inflicted misery and self-hatred. That I would maybe not understand, but manage to accept, but... it's all the other little things. Nothing you say can creep me out anymore, but... folders of pictures? Drawings? Stories? Hallucinations? All about this one asshole? Listen I know I'm no good at getting over people at will, but you, honey, you take it to a whole new unhealthy level.

You claim to have gotten better... and maybe you have. But we both wonder, are you really feeling better or are you just not telling anyone about it?

I guess it's none of my business but damn... I'm kinda scared. Both for you and of you.

[Mystical]

CIJS

If there were a chocolate layer ice cream cake with chocolate fudge swirls and *cream cheese* chocolate frosting topped with crumbled Reeses cups.. I would not share.

Also Longhorn why are you afraid of said person? Are they violent? Have they mistaken you for N? Are they aware they're hallucinating when they do? Are you sure they hallucinate and just aren't drama mama's making up shit because they're so lonely?

[Longhorn]

Also Longhorn why are you afraid of said person?

They can be pretty unpredictable. Might end up doing crazy shit, being a danger to themselves etc.

Are they violent?

Not afaik. Most of the aggression is self-inflicted.

Have they mistaken you for N?

Nope... where did that come from? :p

Are they aware they're hallucinating when they do?

Hard to say. Really, really hard to say. I recall them saying something along the lines of 'but he IS there', so... not-ish?

Are you sure they hallucinate and just aren't drama mama's making up shit because they're so lonely?

Good question, but it most certainly wouldn't be for attention. Not the type. It's either a serious issue or their imagination and naïveté running way, way, wild.

[brewer]

For god's sake don't let them know you're a spy.

[Mystical]

Well.. this is the CIJS thread but I'd suggest that you figure out how far you're willing to include yourself in their business, ie: would you be willing to encourage and help her follow through with an evaluation at her local walk in clinic? Every city has some form of urgent mental health services. Like crisis hotlines and clinics that help with crisis intervention.

You can take her in, at any time, for emergencies, to the hospital emergency department too. She'd need to be complicit and honest with the assessor though amd tell them shes afraid for her safety (suicidal or wreckless endangerment kind of tbing) unless she's hurt herself in which case that's an automatic hold. Honestly my mother has gone this route several times this year and I'm happy with how the police/hospital/mental health facipity handled things.

Or on a less urgent level I don't know a single state mental health clinic that doesn't allow walkins for people in duress. Suicide prevention definitely too has resources.

If anything just giving her the numbers could save her life, if you're scared of her. Personally I don't tolerate chronically suicidal people in my life. Either want to live, or go be suicidal elsewhere. I've had family kill themselves though.

If she seems removed from reality it's possible that contacting some one in her family might be good, but as I said not everyone is willing to allow suicidal behavior to dominate their loves by keeping those relationships. It's not healthy for either party. Sadly, the isolation is part of the disease and it adds to the person's sense of despair. You aren't captain Save the world, but there are things you can do to help if you feel there needs to be some intervention.
Hallucinations are serious indicators, depending upon the mental illness she's dealing with. For instance if she hallucinates you as someone else who has hurt her. Or hallucinates her abuser talking to her and telling her to hurt herself or something. Even just having the hallucinations creating paranoia could put her in a self-preservantion mode and so I'd advise not going near her if she has access to weapons.

Just my 2c for free

[Longhorn]

Thanks for the advice, Luckie. I don't think its quite that serious yet. I have encouraged and even threatened her to get help, multiple times. Doesn't want it. I do need to mention that this is a young and very, very naive person. Very much still childish and pretty lost. The hallucinations and hysteria are worrying to me, but I sometimes suspect the self-aggression and suicidal tendencies are exaggerated. I had to remove her from my life for a period of time because she just wouldn't shut up about it, even after I tried to make her choose. I couldn't stand it back then. Now I'm more or less entirely emotionally removed from her biz. I'm just concerned there is something worse than general toxicity wrong with her, considering the claims of hallucination (no abuser though, but an object of a heavy romantic obsession) and her talking to herself (not in a normal way either - mumbling, laughing, as if she was talking to someone else entirely), among other bizarre behaviors. I'm not going to let this get to me though. I'll only intervene when it's plausible she might actually harm herself. Other than that, might be cuckoo, but not my problem. Thanks for your input, though