Prayers/poems to God....
April 17, 2016 at 12:58 am
(This post was last modified: April 17, 2016 at 1:10 am by Mystic.)
Title: As my soul perishes.
Everything I say
Everything I do
Is any of it being true to you?
They came to this world
And the world turned away from them
Ungrateful to your favor
That you bestowed upon them
Tell me o God how will I temper my hate by discipline?
They reject them because they hate you
They hate you because the dark one has beautified in their eyes their love of idols.
Your book is not unclear
But clear bright signs guiding to the path
It's our hearts that are unclear
And we refuse to polish them with reflection
So I testify not a single act has been an act of submission
but seeking that arrogant cloak that will never raise me to you
No
Rather
The truth is
I know I hate you deep inside
Clinging to my false self
Refusing to embrace
That name of yours
That light
That leader
That Guide
Saying I want to live
And not pass away
Where nothing remains but your face.
I refuse to embrace that love of AlHassan and Al-Hussain
No I'm a traitor to Ali
Abandoning Fatima
So having not embrace the path of love
I now cower in fear
What will happen to me
If I remain on this path of destruction
And prefer the unclean word
Over Taha your Messenger
Will I die and perish
As the heart of of the witness of our time watches me perish?
Will he not pray for me Ya Allah?
Will you not change my heart for his sake?
Make me one of his helpers
One of his followers?
Not due to any love that I may merit
Nor any praise that I've earned
But for his sake Ya Allah
That he doesn't watch the one who you once guided
And enlightened with your face
To suffer
To harden
To whither away from grace
And perish in a his own dug grave
While walking among people
I see myself with no power
No way to fight back
As the dark forces take over my soul
You been watching me perish day by day
I complain with self pity
The little of mercy I have left for my soul
The little fear I still have from wisdom
Why God?
Why have you left me?
Why don't you help me?
Why don't you save me?
Why don't you lift my heart?
Why don't you inspire me?
Why don't you guide me?
Why don't you push me?
Why don't you empower me?
Why don't you connect me?
Is this the end of our friendship?
Have you decided to seal my heart?
If your hate and anger regarding me has become firm
Then for the pleasure of Mohammad and his family
Favor me for their sake
Rekindle a light, for their sake
Honor me, for their sake
And let me not continue on this path of destruction, for their sake
Everything I say
Everything I do
Is any of it being true to you?
They came to this world
And the world turned away from them
Ungrateful to your favor
That you bestowed upon them
Tell me o God how will I temper my hate by discipline?
They reject them because they hate you
They hate you because the dark one has beautified in their eyes their love of idols.
Your book is not unclear
But clear bright signs guiding to the path
It's our hearts that are unclear
And we refuse to polish them with reflection
So I testify not a single act has been an act of submission
but seeking that arrogant cloak that will never raise me to you
No
Rather
The truth is
I know I hate you deep inside
Clinging to my false self
Refusing to embrace
That name of yours
That light
That leader
That Guide
Saying I want to live
And not pass away
Where nothing remains but your face.
I refuse to embrace that love of AlHassan and Al-Hussain
No I'm a traitor to Ali
Abandoning Fatima
So having not embrace the path of love
I now cower in fear
What will happen to me
If I remain on this path of destruction
And prefer the unclean word
Over Taha your Messenger
Will I die and perish
As the heart of of the witness of our time watches me perish?
Will he not pray for me Ya Allah?
Will you not change my heart for his sake?
Make me one of his helpers
One of his followers?
Not due to any love that I may merit
Nor any praise that I've earned
But for his sake Ya Allah
That he doesn't watch the one who you once guided
And enlightened with your face
To suffer
To harden
To whither away from grace
And perish in a his own dug grave
While walking among people
I see myself with no power
No way to fight back
As the dark forces take over my soul
You been watching me perish day by day
I complain with self pity
The little of mercy I have left for my soul
The little fear I still have from wisdom
Why God?
Why have you left me?
Why don't you help me?
Why don't you save me?
Why don't you lift my heart?
Why don't you inspire me?
Why don't you guide me?
Why don't you push me?
Why don't you empower me?
Why don't you connect me?
Is this the end of our friendship?
Have you decided to seal my heart?
If your hate and anger regarding me has become firm
Then for the pleasure of Mohammad and his family
Favor me for their sake
Rekindle a light, for their sake
Honor me, for their sake
And let me not continue on this path of destruction, for their sake