New Atheist

[WolfsChild]

fucking OCD is pissing me off ...av done things like watching anime and listening to death metal 
my husband knows  and has been trying to help me 
AV  GONE INSANE BE BACK LATER 


Seeing some guy that is Jesus   
it dont help at all 


OCD thoughts tell me i must go back to Christianity to keep everyone else happy 
My husband says do what is right for me and fuck everyone else  ...thing is he getting sick of me changing my mind 

[account_inactive]

Sorry to hear that Alex, that sounds horrible.  

Don't go back to Christianity. Fuck Christianity.

[WolfsChild]

thanks for the hugs 

 yes fuck Christianity

[account_inactive]

That's more like it!

[WolfsChild]

Am i evil ? OCD Thought telling  me am going to hell because i want to keep everyone happy  my mother will be happy if am not transgender  
i feel like am pulling myself apart  am at the point where i feel suicdal but am safe as my husband locks every thing i could use to hurt myself away 
OCD IS DRIVING ME CRAZY 

[robvalue]

I'm very sorry for what you're going through I'm struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts too. I'm glad you've got your husband to anchor you, like I've got my wife.

No one going to hell, it's a fantasy created to control people through fear.

If your mother can't accept you for who you are, that's entirely her problem. She should be focusing on how she can help you, if anything, not giving you more to worry about.

Sending you hugs

[WolfsChild]

my mum always like things done her way or the high way 
i just let her think she won  its very rarely ill go down and see her 

i am seeing Jesus  not just any Jesus   its Zombie Jesus  but its kinda graphic 
Its makes things interesting 

Am glad you have your wife there to support  you  i hope you feel better soon

[LivingNumbers6.626]

Sorry to hear all that. I too deal with issues of sort dealing in the realm of mental health. I hope your new realization guides you to happier heights. Welcome to the boards!