The Newly Departed thread: announcements (departures)

[Edwardo Piet]

I haven't been posting as much. Trying to find meaning in my life again. Everything is grey. It's all grey.

Grey and hopeless.

At least I can try to laugh about that with the following video:





But seriously my life is empty and meaningless right now.

[Thumpalumpacus]

'Tis what you make it, Hams. Get better.

[Edwardo Piet]

I just want to find something to feel good about.

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Gonna distract myself with AFing.

I shall kill the time. Time isn't necessarily fun when it flies by but it certainly hurts less that way.

[Edwardo Piet]

... he says before he gets sidetracked by Baldur's Gate: Enhanced Edition.

It's just such a good game!

[Mystical]

The elephant in the room

So.. Not to bring up unpleasant things nor do I owe any explanations, but I did say I was leaving for good and now I'm back again. It's confusing to me too, although I did miss you all so much I've quite enjoyed my homecoming! I left Riiighhhhhttt around the time I posted a very controversial reply to my husband in open AFSkype room during a very pivotal moment in our marriage! Too many people got too much information, with that, and not all of it was accurate I admit.
But what are we all, if not friends by now after all these years of forming side by side? Sometimes friends tend to get to know their friends more closely than acquaintances--and, by proxy, their dirty laundry as well!

For those of you who know what I'm talking about, yes I was on anesthetics and morphine for a reconfiguration of my innerds and I had a 6in incision among others, in my abdomen. Needless to say, it was not the best time to make life altering decisions. Yes, I regret those decisions, and no I didn't plan it, it just happened naturally on a progressive timeline of life sequences and unveilings. In short, I thought my husband was crazy and he thought the same about me; it was a very fucked up time in our marriage and we both did things we are both sorry for. Mainly we suffered from lack of proper communication! Funny to think about-- considering we lived together, but it happened. I saw zero chance of reconciliation in that situation--I believed wholeheartedly what i said. I regret shutting down communication completely, that was on me. But, looking back, I don't know if we could've or would've reconciled had we not separated. I do know that I wanted a separation, and that's my right to ask for. It's just that we were separated by an ocean instead of two separate residences. There wasn't really any alternative.

We are still together. Throughout and despite all of that, he still loves me and I still love him. We have some marital counseling to do, sure, and personal issues we are working on, but hey we have never been married before, you know? We have chosen to be there for each other as we pick ourselves back up from what had been, a failure on both our parts. Hard lessons were learned, and new lessons we are now learning, together.

That's really all I have to say other than sorry you all got wind of dirty laundry in your sails!

[Alex K]

Missed all the drama, glad you guys are working on it!

[pocaracas]

Well, I didn't miss the drama... Got some Skype from Esq and then saw Luckie's take...
Found it very odd...
I did manage to talk to Esq for a bit, trying to make some sense out of it... but... Now we know.
I'm glad you two are working on it.

@Luckie, something you said reminded me of this quote:
"There is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself? That is why life is always like a sketch. No, "sketch" is not quite a word, because a sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch for nothing, an outline with no picture."
Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

"We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come."
Milan Kundera

[Thumpalumpacus]

That's really all I have to say other than sorry you all got wind of dirty laundry in your sails!

Many of us, myself included, have walked that road -- airing out our skivvies while the neighbors are at the fence.

Best wishes for your health and relationship. Cleave to the right, and cotton to the true, you guys will be fine when you do that.

[Excited Penguin]

Sorry about your troubles, Luckie, I wish you well!

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Also, regarding something else...

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Made what might have seemed like a homophobic remark in my last post... Not so. Not anymore than calling someone a cunt is indicative of being a misogynist. Still, apologies to any offended parties(if any).

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[Tonus]

That's really all I have to say other than sorry you all got wind of dirty laundry in your sails!

Well, I missed that whole mess so you'll have to make do without my judging you guys.