Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[Joods]

I'm sorry. I can't imagine a world without my dad. It's going to kill me if I don't go first. I think it might kill Tibs too. Luckily, my dad's still quite young. I'm hoping to be old when he kicks the bucket. Mom too.

Thanks, love. I was very close to my father's side of the family. My grandfather taught me to speak Italian when I was first learning to speak.
I haven't spoken to my mother for seven years, by my choice. I don't miss her at all but it still upsets me to talk about my dad not being here.

[Joods]

Cijs-

On the one hand, you provide. You work hard without complaining. You are patient most of the time. I have your love, you have mine. You bring me flowers to school (not from a flower shop, but from nature itself). You are a willing client and let me cut your hair however I like. You've gone a few months now without the Grizzly Adams look and have stuck to just a goatee and moustache because I don't like a full beard if it's not well groomed. You've interacted more with the kids. You put the dishes away (with prodding from me). You do my laundry because I have asthma and easily get out of breath walking up and down stairs. You've given me two wonderful stepsons that are a huge part of my world.

On the other hand - I don't feel respected by you. It hurts me when you do things that don't involve common sense or when you intentionally play dumb. I'd tell you this, adult to adult, but I feel like you don't care enough to want to listen. So why bother?

The plusses easily outweigh the con's here and for the most part I've got a good man. But why do I feel like I'm alone in this relationship or that I'm the only person who cares about the feelings of my partner? How is that fair to either one of us? Why is it that to get you to do the things you've promised to get done, I have to go on strike or threaten to leave after graduation? I'm tired of a lot of things, really. And I don't know what else to do.

[Regina]

I'm sorry. I can't imagine a world without my dad. It's going to kill me if I don't go first. I think it might kill Tibs too. Luckily, my dad's still quite young. I'm hoping to be old when he kicks the bucket. Mom too.

I lost mine last year (he was only 52, cancer) and it pretty much broke me. Still trying to get my life back together now tbh, although I'm much better than I was.

Somehow, you manage it. It'll never be the same again, but it does get easier.

Perhaps the worst thing about it was that it completely tore my family apart. My one aunt got picked on by my grandmother and other aunt, and they've cut eachother off. My grandmother and the shitty aunt also disappeared after he died, and left it completely to my Mom and the good aunt (who we've grown very close to now) to make the funeral arrangements, only to bitch and whine about what they organised once they re-appeared. That culminated in my Mom and Grandmother cutting eachother off after 30 years of knowing eachother.

Just messy all round.

[Shell B]

That's awful, Regina. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

[Joods]

Hugs Yeaux. My dad was 57, a paraplegic since he was 35, had four major heart attacks and several strokes. I'm surprised he lived as long as he did. I was 24 when he passed away.

[Edwardo Piet]

I haven't seen my dad since late 2006. Probably a good thing in my case.

Wish I'd met my grandfathers. Unfortunately they both died before I was born. One at 49 of a heartattack and the other in his early 50s of drowning. Presumed suicide.

[Athene]

CIJS--

Merry Christmas, AF!

Especially you, love. 
I'm working ALL day, but I'll try my best not leave you lon-e-ly.

[robvalue]

Merry Christmas everyone

I hope you're all having a good day! I got a jigsaw puzzle of my very own doggy.

[Joods]

Cijs -
While entertaining enough, it was one of the more nonsensical things I've ever seen. Do carry on though.

[Thumpalumpacus]

Much as you were a friend, what you did was awful. Your son will live every Christmas Eve the rest of his life thinking of it as the night his father killed himself.

I'm sad you were in such a black spot, and wish I could have helped. But I'm much sadder for Tyler.