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RE: How are you today?
July 5, 2013 at 8:45 pm
This is hard for me to admit but I've had the same kind of reaction over losing my sweet Princess. Rather than stopping medication, since I wasn't on anything prior, I'd deliberately over-medicate on the meds I was prescribed as a result. Not an overdose per se (though I've done that a few times as well) the idea was to allow the medication to build up in my system to the point where I would have taken a fatal dose in total. Basically I wanted to be taken rather than take myself; which is essentially what happened to my Sam on that horrible day. I still have episodes like that despite my personal life having improved - for a given value of 'improved' anyway.
It sounds selfish of me I know. I just want to be with my Sam one way or another, whatever that actually means in practise.
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RE: How are you today?
July 6, 2013 at 1:20 am
I can't keep up with this pace. Sleep deprived. Coming apart at the seams. I started having some mild hallucinations, probably from lack of sleep. Which, after a warm shower, is where I am headed.
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RE: How are you today?
July 6, 2013 at 3:40 am
I'm so sorry CD that you're having it rough. I hate it when friends suffer.. Just say if there's anything I can do for you.
When I was young, there was a god with infinite power protecting me. Is there anyone else who felt that way? And was sure about it? but the first time I fell in love, I was thrown down - or maybe I broke free - and I bade farewell to God and became human. Now I don't have God's protection, and I walk on the ground without wings, but I don't regret this hardship. I want to live as a person. -Arina Tanemura
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RE: How are you today?
July 6, 2013 at 11:51 am
Why is Cthulhu's forum name crossed out?
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RE: How are you today?
July 6, 2013 at 3:54 pm
I went out last night to celebrate the final exam being passed.
I got very drunk and so did everyone else.
I got layed again for the first time in 2 or 3 months.
I disapeared the next morning cause she asked me if we wanted to go hicking (which scared me)
I fell asleep on the train home and was horrified about ending up being in Salzburg for 3 hours which in my oppinion is the most horrible, snobish and disgusting place in the western hemisphere.
And when I got home I had an awfull cramp in my right foot, which I always get when I forget to work against the dehydration through alcohol with drinking water.
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RE: How are you today?
July 6, 2013 at 3:56 pm
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(July 6, 2013 at 3:54 pm)The Germans are coming Wrote: I got layed again for the first time in 2 or 3 months.
I disapeared the next morning cause she asked me if we wanted to go hicking (which scared me)
I thought, from something I read on a different thread, that you were gay.
Sorry for that incorrect idea.
Congrats dude! Was she hot? What you remember at least?
What is "hicking"?
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