I've had trouble waking up my entire life and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of making excuses for missing appointments or being late for work. I'm sick of waking up furious that I didn't hear my alarm while I was out cold, and that it's my fault and always being apologetic. It's a bit like living in an African tribe while the whole world blames you for Greece's economy- "Wait a minute, I wasn't in charge. I wasn't even there!"
People call me a night owl, but that isn't even it. Give me long enough, like a few months, and I'll be a morning lark again once I've come full circle. I feel like my body's days are longer than 24 hours, because this shit isn't adding up. For almost my entire adult life, my remedy has been 3rd shift jobs (because even 2nd shift is pushing it) and afternoon appointments, but since around March I've had a 1st shift job and I've been late twice already due to me not hearing my alarm, and when I'm on time it's in the nick of time. I feel that it's getting out of my control.
I've observed other people's lives and how they carry on and handle life, and things like waking up at early times don't seem to phase them. They just carry on with their day on short sleep- "Oh, I better get home. I have to wake up in four hours." How!?! For me, if I push it into the night, I know I won't wake up. I don't care if you set a bomb off next to me, I won't hear it. And the problem is I don't fall asleep well either, so it's an inevitability. If I have to wake up in 3-4 hours, sometimes as much as 6, I just won't go to sleep. I can't risk it.
I also seem to be in the minority, if not the only damn person with this problem. A problem that I consider extremely serious and one that has made my life very difficult going back to my school days.
So, do any of you have this problem? Do you have any advice?
People call me a night owl, but that isn't even it. Give me long enough, like a few months, and I'll be a morning lark again once I've come full circle. I feel like my body's days are longer than 24 hours, because this shit isn't adding up. For almost my entire adult life, my remedy has been 3rd shift jobs (because even 2nd shift is pushing it) and afternoon appointments, but since around March I've had a 1st shift job and I've been late twice already due to me not hearing my alarm, and when I'm on time it's in the nick of time. I feel that it's getting out of my control.
I've observed other people's lives and how they carry on and handle life, and things like waking up at early times don't seem to phase them. They just carry on with their day on short sleep- "Oh, I better get home. I have to wake up in four hours." How!?! For me, if I push it into the night, I know I won't wake up. I don't care if you set a bomb off next to me, I won't hear it. And the problem is I don't fall asleep well either, so it's an inevitability. If I have to wake up in 3-4 hours, sometimes as much as 6, I just won't go to sleep. I can't risk it.
I also seem to be in the minority, if not the only damn person with this problem. A problem that I consider extremely serious and one that has made my life very difficult going back to my school days.
So, do any of you have this problem? Do you have any advice?
I can't remember where this verse is from, I think it got removed from canon:
"I don't hang around with mostly men because I'm gay. It's because men are better than women. Better trained, better equipped...better. Just better! I'm not gay."
For context, this is the previous verse:
"Hi Jesus" -robvalue
"I don't hang around with mostly men because I'm gay. It's because men are better than women. Better trained, better equipped...better. Just better! I'm not gay."
For context, this is the previous verse:
"Hi Jesus" -robvalue
