Facing a dilemma

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Holy shit, that's rough.

First, my sympathy that you've had to go through all this.

On a personal note, I would want a potential killer brought to justice.  But I understand that you've moved on and that going through it all again would open up feelings long buried.

My question would have to be this: Without your testimony, would there be enough enough evidence to send this guy away, or would a conviction hinge on your participation?

They have my testimony as a then 9 year old on file and they are looking for me to now present it in a court of law. My testimony about what this man did to me and to my mother would probably be the only thing to put him away but even then I don't know that it's enough by today's standards. 26 years ago probably.

I had my personal closure when I confronted this man when I was 19. I looked him in the eye and told him I forgave him and I walked away. I remember being so scared doing it but oddly confident. I threw up afterwards. The look on his face was horror. He knew who I was and probably thought I came to kill him. That was my personal closure and it has brought me a lot of healing. But I need to think of my other family members who are still hurting from this who haven't had that closure (my grandparents have been writing letters every year to the state to reopen the case). I think I owe it to them to try. Even if justice is not served, knowing that I did all I could would be enough for at least some closure. The investigator is supposed to call me this week some time to get a sworn statement.