Man, oh man... I am so sorry to hear what you've had to live with, all these years, only to have a childhood terror resurface.
I know it's difficult to face, but I think in the long term you would be unable to live with yourself if you passed up a chance to contribute your piece of the story. What's there for you to tell? "I saw him preparing all our meals." It's a critical link in the chain of evidence, but it's not the case. The majority of the work will be done by the forensic examiner and police-funded chemistry labs (they likely will be able to re-examine the original results, since both chemistry and medical forensics have gotten MUCH better in the past 20 years).
If the fear is too much for you to overcome, we all can sympathize with that feeling. But remember that it is impossible to do something brave if you do not feel absolute terror at the thought of doing it.
I know it's difficult to face, but I think in the long term you would be unable to live with yourself if you passed up a chance to contribute your piece of the story. What's there for you to tell? "I saw him preparing all our meals." It's a critical link in the chain of evidence, but it's not the case. The majority of the work will be done by the forensic examiner and police-funded chemistry labs (they likely will be able to re-examine the original results, since both chemistry and medical forensics have gotten MUCH better in the past 20 years).
If the fear is too much for you to overcome, we all can sympathize with that feeling. But remember that it is impossible to do something brave if you do not feel absolute terror at the thought of doing it.
A Christian told me: if you were saved you cant lose your salvation. you're sealed with the Holy Ghost
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I replied: Can I refuse? Because I find the entire concept of vicarious blood sacrifice atonement to be morally abhorrent, the concept of holding flawed creatures permanently accountable for social misbehaviors and thought crimes to be morally abhorrent, and the concept of calling something "free" when it comes with the strings of subjugation and obedience perhaps the most morally abhorrent of all... and that's without even going into the history of justifying genocide, slavery, rape, misogyny, religious intolerance, and suppression of free speech which has been attributed by your own scriptures to your deity. I want a refund. I would burn happily rather than serve the monster you profess to love.
