I fucking quit...

[Iroscato]

I can bear it as a non-smoker. But when they're a chain-smoker and they smoke all day, after hours and hours of me staying over with them in a small living room - and they don't open any windows or anything - I start to feel very sick, ill, my eyes sting I get heartburn and I have trouble breathing properly. I have to step outside and after a couple of hours I feel back to my normal self. And that's just one day's exposure.

I tried a cigarette once and breathed it in properly and it burnt the fuck out of my throat. I am way too much of a pussy for that I don't know how anyone even bares it.

It is no wonder, the stuff is poison.  My mother used to drive around with the seven of us in a station wagon while she chain smoked.  Wouldn't let us open a window because she was always cold.  Of course, it was really my fault.  When she was pregnant with me her doctor recommended she start smoking to help ease her nerves.  Oh why did I have to be such a difficult pregnancy?  (Nine plus pounds was probably a little tough on the va-jay-jay.)

I don't even have one, and that last sentence made me wince hard O_o