Hang in there, brotha. You are not alone. I'm in the middle of quitting my heavy drinking right now, and am dealing with emotions I've been anesthetizing for years. I'm coming to grips with the fact that too often I've been an asshole to the people I love, and that I don't like that guy one bit -- but I am terrified at times of leaving behind my old self. And at other times, I loathe myself for who I've been. I know I cannot be that guy any more, ever again. But I don't know who I can be, and that scares the shit out of me.
I imagine the chrysalis wonders exactly what the fuck is going on at the moment of molting, too.
I'm not diagnosed nor prescribed, but what I'm going through in my own life is definitely giving me insight. I know how emotionally unbalanced I feel right now, even as I now that it is almost surely a temporary phase. I can only imagine how awful it must be to have to live with it days unending.
You're not alone, brotha. Drop a PM or give me a call if you ever need to talk.
I imagine the chrysalis wonders exactly what the fuck is going on at the moment of molting, too.
I'm not diagnosed nor prescribed, but what I'm going through in my own life is definitely giving me insight. I know how emotionally unbalanced I feel right now, even as I now that it is almost surely a temporary phase. I can only imagine how awful it must be to have to live with it days unending.
You're not alone, brotha. Drop a PM or give me a call if you ever need to talk.
