(January 23, 2016 at 6:55 pm)Emjay Wrote:(January 23, 2016 at 3:41 pm)Excited Penguin Wrote: Ok, I'll take responsibility for bringing it up. Now I'm asking that we move on. I'm sorry if I upset anyone. Can we leave it at that or what?
I'm perfectly able to forget about everything and start a new leaf. Are any of you able to do that as well? Judge me on my future actions and I shall stop blaming and pointing fingers. I'm not at all interested in the past. What's done is done. Even if I could demonstrate I was wronged, that wouldn't change anything. I'm interested in developing a good relationship with anyone interested and stop all the drama and the attacks and so on. I do not enjoy this hate, I don't enjoy it at all. Nobody would. Am I being reasonable at all here or not?
I am not smarter than anyone here. I'm sorry I said that. I'm sorry if I was a dick. This is my apology and I'll stand by it no matter what.
The problem is, EP, you make these sorts of statements which seem perfectly reasonable and personally I start to warm to you again, but they never last. If I could rely on them to last more than a few posts, I'd have a whole different opinion of you, but as it stands experience has taught me that they unfortunately cannot be trusted (by me I mean, not speaking for anyone else). So I had to make a choice... either keep buying it and be disappointed each time or give up on it as a lost cause, and I finally chose the latter, for my own good. I'm not saying I don't think you're sincere when you write them - you may or may not be - but just that they don't last... down to impulsiveness or whatever.
But that said, I'm willing to let bygones be bygones in a practical sense. I don't want to further contribute to your anger and the effects it has on the forum - which in practice seems to happen whether I'm nice or nasty to you - nor do I want to spend the rest of my forum days walking on eggshells around you, so the best course of action from my perspective is simply not to engage you any more than is absolutely necessary. So next time you pop up with a thread asking for suggestions for a name change, I won't chime in with rude or insulting suggestions - fun as it may be - because that only fuels the fire. But on the flip side, each time you make a good post, I don't see the point in engaging that either because it always deteriorates to anger and is all about walking on eggshells lest something I say set you off... for instance when Godschild was wishing you well and offering encouragement about quitting smoking and somehow - God knows how - you took offence at that and turned on him. So I can either positively engage your posts and spend my time vetting my own posts for possible EP triggers, or just not engage at all, and I think the latter is the best option.
I'm not here to argue about this post but just to state my position, so my engagement ends here because I don't want to derail this thread any more than you do. But just to say it doesn't mean I'm ignoring you just not engaging you... I'll still probably to and fro in how I see you and still think some of your posts are good. Nor does it mean that I hate you (though sometimes, I admit, my anger gets the better of me and I do), but just that this seems the best solution to the problem. You're welcome to apply the same policy to me.
I don't feel the need to make arrogant remarks anymore.