I'm not sure if this will help, and it will sound HORRIBLY cheesy.
It seems you need something to live for. Your life doesn't have meaning ? Give it some. Give yourself goals to focus on, have a dream that you want to accomplish, anything works.
It seems you need something to live for. Your life doesn't have meaning ? Give it some. Give yourself goals to focus on, have a dream that you want to accomplish, anything works.