Whelp, make me feel good people

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 And frankly, I'm smart, but I'm irrational. ... You see, I didn't have much to look up to other than being very fucking good at math and science. The only person I could ever call a friend was my physical science teacher. And even more funny enough, I had a very good comprehension towards science, including biology and as such evolution as a whole. Though it was never my interest, because I'm interested in things that take us away from life in general, called a rocket. In fact, I spent more time thinking about nuclear weapons that biology.

Well for starters you seem like a good candidate for /r/iamverysmart/

If your seriously depressed then you should see a professional, not a internet forum. But there have been some very good members here that have helped me understand depression:

http://atheistforums.org/thread-42407.html (is one)

My personal issue is that I have an obsession. Because of my failures in life, I've become insecure, and that's where the meat of depression gets in. There is in truth, allot of anger, allot of paranoia, and the inability to think rationally. And I have allot of that. I can only assume the worst of people, and I spend day and night thinking and imagining people gossiping and plotting against me.

Am I correct in assuming your "obsession" is the above in bold? If so then your paranoid and there is treatments for that.

To be very brief, I've come to hate atheists, and anti theists in general. ... I would eventually meet up with a very vocal atheist...

For no reason than you talked to one once? Your right, you are irrational.

Now, the amount of people willing to read on at this point could probably fit in a bath tub. I pretty much threatened allot of my friends for various reasons...

Well your a good canidate for /r/imsobadass. And you kinda condescended to the entire community when introducing yourself.

If you want attention the internet is the place to get it. If you want help you should really reach out and find it in the real world.