Whelp, make me feel good people

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 And frankly, I'm smart, but I'm irrational. ... You see, I didn't have much to look up to other than being very fucking good at math and science. The only person I could ever call a friend was my physical science teacher. And even more funny enough, I had a very good comprehension towards science, including biology and as such evolution as a whole. Though it was never my interest, because I'm interested in things that take us away from life in general, called a rocket. In fact, I spent more time thinking about nuclear weapons that biology.

Well for starters you seem like a good candidate for /r/iamverysmart/

If your seriously depressed then you should see a professional, not a internet forum. But there have been some very good members here that have helped me understand depression:

http://atheistforums.org/thread-42407.html (is one)

My personal issue is that I have an obsession. Because of my failures in life, I've become insecure, and that's where the meat of depression gets in. There is in truth, allot of anger, allot of paranoia, and the inability to think rationally. And I have allot of that. I can only assume the worst of people, and I spend day and night thinking and imagining people gossiping and plotting against me.

Am I correct in assuming your "obsession" is the above in bold? If so then your paranoid and there is treatments for that.

To be very brief, I've come to hate atheists, and anti theists in general. ... I would eventually meet up with a very vocal atheist...

For no reason than you talked to one once? Your right, you are irrational.

Now, the amount of people willing to read on at this point could probably fit in a bath tub. I pretty much threatened allot of my friends for various reasons...

Well your a good canidate for /r/imsobadass. And you kinda condescended to the entire community when introducing yourself.

If you want attention the internet is the place to get it. If you want help you should really reach out and find it in the real world.

Okay, first off. I don't go to reddit. Second, I'm not boasting, there is nothing badass about being angry and threatening people, it's just annoying and a waste of time for either people on either end. Second, I'm not smart, I just listen to the god damned teacher. Smart people actually discover and validate various findings and such. Also, as for the conversation? You know, me meeting a very vocal person? Yeah, just because I don't get into the detail as to how we began a conversation doesn't mean I went up to the person and began debating for no reason.

So I can tell from here you have only and -only- the intent of mocking. And that's the thing, if your goal was to be condescending, you won. Pat yourself on the back. If you want to present atheists as reasonable people, then unfortunately, you failed miserably.

Of all the people who are here, only one guy actually gets it.

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I don't care. About anything you typed. Your anger, your depression, what you've been through, blah blah blah. I don't care. You're nobody to me.
The only difference between me and most people is that most people won't come out and say that. They'll humor you and then make a note to themselves never to talk to you again.
Anyway, I figure someone should put the truth in laymen terms; Learn to conceal your crazy like everyone else or become isolated and get crazier.
Have fun deciding which of those is a better fate.

I'm not here asking for help on depression. I already no how to take care of that. The goal of this thread is to help me see atheists as impressionable and respectable people. I can see now that this attempt was a failure, albeit a very entertaining one. So far you and c172 (what's his name...) actually managed to have a certain understanding. This is quite a sad outcome really, because it proves that the goal of peacefully crossing fingers and hope the muslims simple convert is not going to happen, especially because of how they're interacting even towards those who consider abandoning their beliefs.

As for the isolation part? Yeah... you don't really know how depression works do you. Depressed people only act depressed when they are alone or without interaction. They do not deliberately avoid interaction or other people because the paranoia and emotions fade into the background. I meet as much people as any other person, but when trying to sleep or when left to their own thoughts, that can be where things go wrong. Depression is an unpleasant thought process, not the origin story of a stock character in a Shyamalan film.

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Please don't let this be your only post.  I'm missing you already.  Oh, and that light fixture above your bed?  It's JUST a light fixture, I swear.  It isn't a camera at all, so there's one less thing to worry about.

Boru

No. The light fixture above my bed is a light fixture. It has a light bulb in it that turns on whenever I flip a switch near my doorway.