This is what I think God is

[gwhendri]

Thank you for being open. You can tell us as much or as little as you want, it's your decision, your life. Very glad you/others recognized that you needed help and were hospitalized. There are some that are not that fortunate, they don't receive help.

I hope that you are still receiving therapy, more than just medication. Medication alone is usually not a solution.

This helps explain your particular beliefs up to this point (at least to me). What you went through is unique to you but in general is not uncommon. Your beliefs more than likely will change as time passes. You need to continue to talk to your treatment professionals about what is going on with your thought process. I'm now more willing to listen to them here. What I or others say may or may not help you. Talking here can be a positive outlet but is no substitute for a treatment professional.

Best Wishes

Ok I appreciate your opinion. I'll tell you why I posted here. I told my psychiatrist that same opening statement and he agreed with me and said I should right a book. I posted to see what an Atheist would think. I think that is wrong that he is feeding my ego like that.
Anyways I will not right some stupid book, but I will hold onto my beliefs and keep them to myself from now on.
I will keep them for these reasons...
They make me feel better
It's really all I have
And lastly Atheism is boring