Just a heads up.

[Esquilax]

If I cut my patches in half they spill liquid out. I'm currently on 50mg. One of the reasons for going of is that I bump into stuff a lot. I'm all covered in knots and bruises (which don't because well...yea lmao). I was starting to wonder how many times I can knock my head into something before losing valuable brain cells.

So...I have some old 25mg patches. Should I bump back down to those for a bit first.

50 is... kind of a lot. If you have 25s, I'd say use them, and the reason I say cut 'em in half is because there is a brand you can get that don't have gel in them so it's actually possible to do that. Might not be a bad idea to discuss with your doctor or pharmacist to see if you can get the cuttable ones, because even going from 25 to zero is going to be quite a kick.

To put it in perspective, at the end, Luckie was on 12 mcg patches, and we were cutting them into quarters before she went cold turkey.

"Don't be nervous" he says. Bahaha that coming from you makes me think other kinds of thoughts. I'm nervous only because you know...people always share the withdraw horror stories. No one ever says "oh yea I quit meds cold turkey and...it wasn't bad at all". People love sharing the horror stories.

Don't be nervous, because it'll make what you're going through worse. Since you can't change it, all being upset will do is tense you up further and make it harder on your body. Keep warm, keep hydrated, stay as comfortable as you can be and don't be ashamed to take some You Time: slowing down is not a sign of weakness, especially not when withdrawing from opiates. Also, and I know this seems rich coming from me, but orgasms help: the endorphin rush will help with any cramps you may get. Worth a try, anyway.

I'm not going to lie and say it'll be easy, but it doesn't necessarily have to be as hard as you may be imagining, either. Just... relax.