Faith and achievement

[Excited Penguin]

Whenever I get in the zone like that, I don't have faith. I actually know what's going to happen and how to prevent it/deal with it. That shit is real. I don't care how crazy it sounds. It fucking works.

If only I could master it, that would be something else.

Well, that's the thing, though.  When I'm in that zone, it seems like things could never be any other way.  I can't understand how that other bennboy was so dense as not to "get" what I'm getting at that moment.  At that point, there's nothing to "master," and out of that point, getting back to it seems almost impossible.

Now that I'm older, I've had the zone experience quite a lot of times.  I know it's lurking in there, somewhere in my brain.  But how do I access it?  The answer is first knowing that it's "in there somewhere."  The second is to basically hope, to appeal to that part of my brain to wake the fuck up.  Then there's a lot of warmup (in the case of piano), of trying mental tricks to get me to that place.  There's a lot of waiting for that lightning bolt to strike again.

I'd say it's not unlike praying to your brain, to be honest, and believing that if you pray enough, it will reward you with that high-level experience you are hoping for.

I actually used to have a theory as a teenager that worship of Gods is, really, just worship of the self.