Faith and achievement

[bennyboy]

It's still you, still controlling your digits.  It's not as though the hands have been taken off the wheel.  Just in the zone baby (which is actually a word we use to describe the upper transmission limit of human wiring, lol).  I love that feeling, btw.  I get it for flamenco strumming, -feels- like I'm just watching my hand.  I black out for difficult vocals, that one's even weirder.  You get out a line or two, then the next thing you know...the sets over, applause...apparently you did well.  Panic though, for the milliseconds before people clap..and they're just staring at you, lol.

To me, any part of my brain that I don't have conscious control over is a kind of cohabitator in my head.  I don't consider it "me" playing, but more those other parts playing through me. It's like cooperative channeling or something-- "Hey, musical me, let's make this one a good one!"

But yeah, the two best musical experiences I ever had were really great practices/concerts, along with the dread, the disorientation when I "come back" to the real world, and the other is  a lucid dream in which I realized I could compose music and hear it, real time as I created it, in the dream.  That was bitching.  And while I wouldn't say it came from a Sky Daddy God, it certainly had the aesthetic qualities of a kind of revelatory or religious vision. Choirs of angels, that one was.