I never truly believed.
I wanted to believe, because everyone around me did and I didn't want to disappoint them or get in trouble. I tried very hard to believe. Went through the motions, and created an image of god I could respect. But none of it was real. It was just my own imagination at work. I finally admitted it to myself shortly after 9/11 (not that the event had anything to do with it), and I've been happy ever since.
I wanted to believe, because everyone around me did and I didn't want to disappoint them or get in trouble. I tried very hard to believe. Went through the motions, and created an image of god I could respect. But none of it was real. It was just my own imagination at work. I finally admitted it to myself shortly after 9/11 (not that the event had anything to do with it), and I've been happy ever since.
"I was thirsty for everything, but blood wasn't my style" - Live, "Voodoo Lady"