(August 28, 2016 at 2:01 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:(August 26, 2016 at 11:18 pm)Emjay Wrote: Ever diminishing scope; the comforting lies we are told or tell ourselves in our youth - you can do anything, be anything - gradually or not so gradually giving way to the cold, hard, constricting reality that er, no you can't.
One thing I love about growing older is coming to grips with reality on reality's terms. Doing so forces me to probe my own depths and I come out with a better understanding of not only reality, but my own self. The older I get, the more Stoicism makes sense, outside of the deism stuff.
Don't get me wrong... I totally agree with you here; I am intrigued by the journey and the understanding it gives way to, and I'm proud of many of my private mental achievements... things that only come with age and experience... by necessity and in everyone, I'd guess. The process of maturation really, and evolving... our own private wisdom that just comes through age and exposure to life/shit. I'm stoic too and face most of my shit alone, but I continue to surprise myself in how courageous and strong I've become internally if not externally. It's just such a shame that everyone develops their own personal wisdom like this, tailored to their own unique situation/predicament in life, but there's no way to share it in experiential terms... words cannot do it justice. I've been thinking a lot about art lately, trying to find a way of expressing these feelings, and getting them out of myself. But it eludes me and I'm no artist. The mental landscape and it's dynamics are too complicated so they feel like they're confined forever to my mind, but I would give anything to get just a bit of it out there... for my own aid and as a legacy. Because that's the worst part of it... billions of lives throughout history, all with a lifetime's worth of unique wisdom, all lost, as if it never happened, in death, unless it is somehow expressed.
