Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

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CIJS...
war in my head: I'm thinking contradiction. One thought says "fuck you", the other says "Don't cry". One thought says "of course I'm doing the right thing" while the other says "what am I doing". Reason tells me to keep doing what I'm doing. Is it really reason? Is it really my emotions? Is reason the other thought, not this one? I can't tell. Which is it? Am I digging my own grave? Am I risking, gambling with time and life? Am I being fair? Yes. I'm being prudent and logical. I'm being reasonable. I'm doing the smart thing. Right? Yes? It feels off, though. It feels right, but miserably wrong. It reasons right. It feels wrong. There. That's it. That.

Oh no sis, that sounds so horrible I'm here for you