(October 1, 2016 at 6:13 pm)Thena323 Wrote:

(October 1, 2016 at 6:41 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote: I'm glad you're okay. Figure out what, huh?

Hey... enjoy your drive and enjoy your work (presuming you're driving there)

Whether or not my instincts can be trusted, regarding certain matters.
Mine seem to be a bit jumbled/broken these days. 

I've determined that there's really nothing to figure out, though. I just tend to overthink things, sometimes...especially in the wee hours.

Well you just trust yourself and keep on keeping on. Hope everything is okay.

You tend to overthink things? Well I can't say I can't relate!!!

(October 1, 2016 at 7:27 pm)Nymphadora Wrote: Yes, my other kids are what keeps me going. But only just.

I know how powerless you must feel, and actually be, up against this guy who you can see through but no-one else can... who's playing everyone and the system and only you can see it. The thought of it makes my blood boil and I so wish there was something I or anyone else could say or do to change the situation or make you feel better, but I know there's not It's more than anyone should have to deal with in a lifetime... years and years of powerlessness. I just hope you know that there are people out here that care about you and are longing just as much as you for your predicament to change And maybe it will... no-one can predict the future... just hang in there *hugs*

(October 1, 2016 at 6:24 pm)Nymphadora Wrote: CIJS

I am done. Given what I was just told, I stand zero chance of ever seeing my oldest again. I cannot handle this. I cannot grieve. I cannot get closure. And I cannot keep going on like this. I am tired of suffering.

Oh, Nymph I'm so sorry. [emoji53] I don't understand how it's possible that decision was made. I wish there was something I could do for you. [emoji45]

Thanks everyone. Your words really do help. I love you all. : heart:

CIJS...I'm so sick of having to babysit other people's children in public. Why is it that moms can't muster the minimum amount of energy required to fulfill their most basic supervisory duties as parents? Who leaves a 6 year old responsible for an 8 month old amongst strangers in a public library room? (read: my husband and I). Why do I always have to be the asshole who is reporting someone (reported to the library director in this case) for not taking care of their kid?! You'd think this would be embarrassing for the offending parent, but no. Apparently, it's the 6 year old's fault for not being able to live up to the task placed upon her.

If babies are such an inconvenience in your life, STOP HAVING THEM. [emoji35]

I know right! So often I have no idea who the parents are and I could easily walk off with the kid without anyone being the wiser.

(October 2, 2016 at 10:21 am)robvalue Wrote: I know right! So often I have no idea who the parents are and I could easily walk off with the kid without anyone being the wiser.

I KNOW!  It's like...I'm kind of busy supervising my OWN child which is hard enough, thank you very much.  

(October 2, 2016 at 9:19 am)LadyForCamus Wrote: CIJS...I'm so sick of having to babysit other people's children in public.  Why is it that moms can't muster the minimum amount of energy required to fulfill their most basic supervisory duties as parents?  Who leaves a 6 year old responsible for an 8 month old amongst strangers in a public library room? (read: my husband and I). Why do I always have to be the asshole who is reporting someone (reported to the library director in this case) for not taking care of their kid?!  You'd think this would be embarrassing for the offending parent, but no.  Apparently, it's the 6 year old's fault for not being able to live up to the task placed upon her.

If babies are such an inconvenience in your life, STOP HAVING THEM.  [emoji35]

It makes me so pissed off that these sorts of people can have children, but I cannot.

CIJS...
war in my head: I'm thinking contradiction. One thought says "fuck you", the other says "Don't cry". One thought says "of course I'm doing the right thing" while the other says "what am I doing". Reason tells me to keep doing what I'm doing. Is it really reason? Is it really my emotions? Is reason the other thought, not this one? I can't tell. Which is it? Am I digging my own grave? Am I risking, gambling with time and life? Am I being fair? Yes. I'm being prudent and logical. I'm being reasonable. I'm doing the smart thing. Right? Yes? It feels off, though. It feels right, but miserably wrong. It reasons right. It feels wrong. There. That's it. That.

(October 2, 2016 at 11:09 am)Jesster Wrote:

(October 2, 2016 at 9:19 am)LadyForCamus Wrote: CIJS...I'm so sick of having to babysit other people's children in public.  Why is it that moms can't muster the minimum amount of energy required to fulfill their most basic supervisory duties as parents?  Who leaves a 6 year old responsible for an 8 month old amongst strangers in a public library room? (read: my husband and I). Why do I always have to be the asshole who is reporting someone (reported to the library director in this case) for not taking care of their kid?!  You'd think this would be embarrassing for the offending parent, but no.  Apparently, it's the 6 year old's fault for not being able to live up to the task placed upon her.

If babies are such an inconvenience in your life, STOP HAVING THEM.  [emoji35]

It makes me so pissed off that these sorts of people can have children, but I cannot.

I can only imagine how frustrating that must be for you, Jesster...the way some women treat procreation like they're going through the drive-through at McDonalds. It makes me sick. I have a close friend with PCOS who has been trying to start a family with her husband for YEARS with no success, and then I come into contact with people like this. I want to pummel them, and ask them if they understand how fortunate they are. [emoji19]