(December 11, 2016 at 8:31 am)purplepurpose Wrote: I'm only 26. And this is the first time in my life, that I noticed that I started to do this "mental gymnastics" by explain to myself, that even if I wish to live selfishly it doesn't mean that in afterlife there is a divine Creature of perfection, who might have to send me to unimaginable agony in afterlife, if I don't meet his standards.
Now I see why people avoid religion like "fire", because you gotta to embrace desperation to endure this form of voluntary "service"/self-punishment.
I'm not sure I 100% get what point you are trying to make. You catch yourself being afraid of hell?
The fool hath said in his heart, There is a God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
Psalm 14, KJV revised edition