Atheism and monasticism?

[ComradeMeow]

I am a weird introvert and difficult to get along with once you have entered my personal space. I like being alone a lot. Even in  a crowd I will isolate myself. "Hey! Are you listening!" is a common phrase I hear. I would not consider this a tendency towards monasticism. Being an introverted book worm is more accurate. I am now divorced and nearing 60. If I do consider another relationship I think another bookworm would be right up my alley.

You have no idea how bad that sounded right now

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  You have no idea how funny it is you bring this up because my stepmother had this odd assertion that because I liked classical music it would make me turn out like the unibomber. She was a horribly stupid woman but oh well.
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For liking classical music lel? Put me up in that club too.

As to the topic, i disagree about isolating oneself. If your brain, considering you are human, gets isolated from other brains, It starts racing with itself. Books are overrated since they are thought out and not in a moment talk.

To me, books serve as help to get knowledge (I don't read pussy romances or general fantasy books). My books are ridden with physics, chemistry, math and formal logic. My friends say I am very weird for liking such dry subjects, but I am what I am.

Still, interacting with others is important. You might get easily convinced by yourself, but I have learned that when interacting with others, we can learn things together.

Social anxiety. Its a thing Comrade. For those in Mafia, its WIFOM. You might look up for the Dunning-kruger effect.

I for one dont underestimate my human peers. Ever. Even from theists, that I say they are wrong about the existance of god whatever that is, in other subjects they can be right.

I for one learned to not be shy about who I am. My counsel is given free of charge.

Well keep in mind I am not talking about being a hermit and secluding yourself from others but instead another group of people.

But obviously you can tell my anxiety issues are a massive reason why I romanticize this, I obviously have similar opinion with my girlfriend. My dream is to get out the city obviously and go back to Mississippi if I can. I enjoyed the isolation there a lot, it made me relax and I never had a panic attack there. Things like this are the reason why I cannot interact with others and it makes me very disabled socially. 

Also me and you have the same love for books it seems, I am in the midst of getting copies of the works of Plato and Omar Khayyam