I'm very sorry for your situation, especially as conflicted as you seem. I would take a look around your area and see if there are grief counselors you can contact to help you. Death will never be easy to deal with, religious or no, but there are people (including friends) who can help you through the difficult time.
It will hit you like a ton of bricks, for days, weeks, months even. Time will eventually smooth the rough edges. You said she was very sick - think of it this way: she will no longer be in pain, and you can remember everything good about her without her suffering anymore. It doesn't take away the loss, I know.
It will hit you like a ton of bricks, for days, weeks, months even. Time will eventually smooth the rough edges. You said she was very sick - think of it this way: she will no longer be in pain, and you can remember everything good about her without her suffering anymore. It doesn't take away the loss, I know.
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