Everything changes me in some way or another, at one level or another. Experience and the accumulation of knowledge together help me evolve consistently.
Things that have changed me:
-a preacher (I became untrusting of men)
-the first of over 27 school changes growing up. Suddenly I was the new girl and I continued to be the new girl for many more years. (I became a people pleaser, trying to win affection really fast before the next move)
-moving out of my parents’ bubble (what is this?! Me, facing the real world)
-the Bible Institute (what is this?! Me, facing a two month punishment in a small room. Long story)
-my first visit to a gay bar (So, I’m not the only one who likes that? There are others?)
-the thing (just no. This was the one that broke me and made me the worst version of me)
-marriage (I always thought mine would be like mom and dad’s. This is impossible.)
-kids (I LOVE these little people. I’m STRONGER for them. Fuuuuck! This love is HUGE)
-reading things besides the Bible (dropped religion)
-divorce (first time in life I have ever been free. Fuck. This is terrifying)
-life after divorce (what do I like? What music is this? What are my hobbies? Find some. So, I can think for me? Cool. Wait. Omg! Aaaaaah! Settle down. This feels good. Aaaaaah! Run in circles. How do people live with freedom? Fuck. It’s amazing! Ahhhhhhhhh! Never had I EVER! From birth to now. Oh lawrdy lawrd! I’m FREE! Who am I? Let’s find out.)
Pretty much.
Things that have changed me:
-a preacher (I became untrusting of men)
-the first of over 27 school changes growing up. Suddenly I was the new girl and I continued to be the new girl for many more years. (I became a people pleaser, trying to win affection really fast before the next move)
-moving out of my parents’ bubble (what is this?! Me, facing the real world)
-the Bible Institute (what is this?! Me, facing a two month punishment in a small room. Long story)
-my first visit to a gay bar (So, I’m not the only one who likes that? There are others?)
-the thing (just no. This was the one that broke me and made me the worst version of me)
-marriage (I always thought mine would be like mom and dad’s. This is impossible.)
-kids (I LOVE these little people. I’m STRONGER for them. Fuuuuck! This love is HUGE)
-reading things besides the Bible (dropped religion)
-divorce (first time in life I have ever been free. Fuck. This is terrifying)
-life after divorce (what do I like? What music is this? What are my hobbies? Find some. So, I can think for me? Cool. Wait. Omg! Aaaaaah! Settle down. This feels good. Aaaaaah! Run in circles. How do people live with freedom? Fuck. It’s amazing! Ahhhhhhhhh! Never had I EVER! From birth to now. Oh lawrdy lawrd! I’m FREE! Who am I? Let’s find out.)
Pretty much.
"Hipster is what happens when young hot people do what old ladies do." -Exian