RE: Things that change us
March 31, 2018 at 12:22 am
(This post was last modified: March 31, 2018 at 12:23 am by Mystic.)
^I find the healing short lived, because in the healing, we grow in capacity, which means more duty, and we are ever playful and negligent towards our duty.
I thought doing well in computer science (3rd year now), would make me feel I've accomplished a lot, but with realizing the skillset I have, and in other classes as well, I feel I been negligent towards my abilities.
The oppressed, the hungry, the people in war torn counties, they wonder what we all do. Watching them.
And the biggest hadith that I constantly remember is the hadiths from then 9th successor:
"Three are partners, the oppressor, the supporter of the oppressor, and the watcher". I am a watcher. I do nothing but watch oppressors have their way.
I wasted too much of my life with video games and other things.
No Psychologist can make this guilt of mine go away and it doesn't matter what they say.
I know I must do something for the oppressed. Right now, I'm just reflecting on exactly what I must do. Right now, I know I must finish my degree, and so focusing my efforts on that.
I know I can do something, I'm just not sure what at the moment. It's so abstract the plan I have to join and be part of.
I thought doing well in computer science (3rd year now), would make me feel I've accomplished a lot, but with realizing the skillset I have, and in other classes as well, I feel I been negligent towards my abilities.
The oppressed, the hungry, the people in war torn counties, they wonder what we all do. Watching them.
And the biggest hadith that I constantly remember is the hadiths from then 9th successor:
"Three are partners, the oppressor, the supporter of the oppressor, and the watcher". I am a watcher. I do nothing but watch oppressors have their way.
I wasted too much of my life with video games and other things.
No Psychologist can make this guilt of mine go away and it doesn't matter what they say.
I know I must do something for the oppressed. Right now, I'm just reflecting on exactly what I must do. Right now, I know I must finish my degree, and so focusing my efforts on that.
I know I can do something, I'm just not sure what at the moment. It's so abstract the plan I have to join and be part of.
