(November 12, 2018 at 5:17 pm)Everena Wrote:(November 12, 2018 at 5:12 pm)Astreja Wrote: "Should" believe? No, that makes it sound like a voluntary thing. "Do" believe and "do not" believe are more accurate.
I can't make myself believe things that I see as ridiculous, and can't make myself not believe things that appear inevitable.
And in your worldview, life existing after death seems ridiculous. Ok, well I accept that. My dad felt the same way for many, many years and has just now as he is in his 70s started to consider otherwise.
I'm in my 60s. In the last ten years I've been intimately acquainted with death, having lost both my parents, the last of my maternal aunts, and all nine of my Dark Legion of Cats. I was the person in the family who actually interred the ashes of aforementioned parents and the aunt in their respective gravesites. I dug holes to bury two of the cats, and drove several other cats' bodies to a cremation facility. I know what it's like to stand in the presence of death.
I accept death. I refuse to deny it or turn my face from it.
I had a vision when I was eleven years old, Everena: I stood "outside" space-time and observed the entire universe rising and falling. There is no ultimate purpose to it all. There are only the myriad purposes that we ourselves find in our lives, and their finitude is what makes them precious.