(November 26, 2018 at 1:08 am)Cathooloo Wrote: We made the arrangements for his cremation this afternoon. I managed to keep myself emotionally detached to get through the process.
I felt guilty about it seeming to be about me now but I realized that now that he's gone, it kind of is.
It is YOUR loss. You're allowed to feel it without feeling guilt of it being "about" you.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
When it comes time to scatter those ashes (if that is the plan) please get someone well-versed in what to expect, to explain that to you. It is not at all like movies and TV would have us believe.
And from the sound of it, if your father had gone home, it's questionable whether he'd have been very aware that he was there. Plus, if he had gone home, you would have very likely wondered if something more could have been done for him to ease his suffering or give him a few more days if he had been in the hospital. There just is no good place to die.
Where are we going and why am I in this hand basket?
