Do I love my father?

[Der/die AtheistIn]

I have similar questions about my father, who passed away several years back.  Beyond the abuse I suffered, I never felt truly loved, though I had the impression that was his overall feelings towards me and my sisters.  I just had difficulty reconciling that with the way I was treated, and I don't necessarily mean the abuse, either.  The last few years of his life, I didn't visit him or talk to him before he died.  I have no regrets about that, as it was not unusual.  Because of my disability, I don't like to travel, and we never did talk.  So, I'm not likely one to have any answers for you, as these are questions I haven't settled for myself.  Sorry that I don't have any wisdom to offer.

No problem, thank you for answering me anyway. Sometimes it really helps to just talk about a problem and hear what others have to say about their experiences.
I hope you're doing great despite your disability. May I ask what disability you have? It's alright if you don't wanna tell.