Let's be biblically literary

[EgoDeath]

I have this annoying trait of not knowing what my view is. 

All of this seems so difficult, so beyond human confidence, and -- most especially -- so far beyond my own little brain's abilities, that I have yet to know what's really true. I have made good-faith efforts to understand these difficult things as far as I can, yet I have a hell of a lot left to learn.

I think that's what you really want to be true. I think you want it to be true that the question of god cannot be answered. You're what Dawkins called a permanent agnostic in principle. I think you want it to be so that the question cannot be and never will be answered. Therefore, it's a wash! What the theists know is just as good as what the atheists know.

But it isn't a wash. The playing field isn't even. The conversation about god's existence hasn't even started because the evidence has never been brought to the table.

I can't even say the theists are losing because the game hasn't even started. Maybe when they bring some evidence of god to the table, the conversation can start.