Evidence for Believing

[Simon Moon]

If you were seeking with a true heart and he hasn't come to you then I can't say, but you must be open to him coming to you in a way you wouldn't think he should.  But all I know is my situation.  You've done your search and you've made a choice.  I  would still keep my mind open, which is probably what you do.  Sometimes it's a matter of timing. Because he hasn't shown you yet doesn't mean he won't.  People come to God during all points in life.

Yes, I was a believer for decades, with many attempts at a sincere search for a god.

The choice I've made, is to be opened to being convinced, but with the knowledge, that there is no good evidence for the existence of gods.

A god might still reveal himself to me. Maybe his work schedule is loaded. Maybe he'll get caught up, and take notice of all my years of sincerely searching for him to reveal himself to me, and come through. If Saul was deserving of a Damascus road experience, maybe I am too.

So you were just eager to be deceived?

I admit, I was.

I was taught from the time I was born, that there is a god, a specific one, by every authority figure in my life. Almost every child is eager to please their parents and other adults in their lives.

I went to weekly religious ceremony, surrounded by people claiming they were having religious experiences, and I wanted desperately to have them also.

I was given many theological books, and apologetics books over the years.

How could the above NOT set up a mental state within me, that would make me eager to be deceived?